Edith Stein: “Leave it with Him…really rest”

On this feast of St. Teresa Benedicta of the Cross, I once again pick up “Edith Stein: a Biography” by Waltraud Herbstrith (Ignatius Press, 1992). It’s a deep and thoughtful book that required my full attention as I read through it for the first time. Now, I can open the book at random and enjoy whatever chapter I find, knowing the full sweep of the conversion story that led Stein into the Catholic Church, a Carmelite vocation, and eventually to martyrdom at the hands of Nazis.

I find her story compelling. I don’t understand the terms and nuances of what she taught as a philosopher, but I know this much: she sought truth within that discipline. That search was integral to her conversion and her religious vocation.

As I celebrate her feast day, I find encouragement in something she wrote, quoted in the Herbstrith biography.

And when night comes, and you look back over
the day and see how fragmentary everything
has been, and how much you planned that has
gone undone, and all the reasons you have to be
embarrassed and ashamed: just take everything
exactly as it is, put it in God’s hands and leave it
with him. Then you will be able to rest in him
really rest – and start the next day as a new life.

Edith Stein, from Wege zur inneren Stille, ed. W. Herbstrith, quoted in Edith Stein: a Biography by Waltraud Herbstrith (Ignatius Press, 1992).

Dad and Independence Day

I’m an immigrant’s kid. I didn’t give that much thought as I grew up. My grandparents died long before I could know them, so I heard nothing about my heritage from them. Dad was naturalized, and that was that.

I eventually learned that he had earned his naturalization the hard way. He had an undying suspicion, possibly justified, that those of us who are birthright citizens take for granted things like the Constitution.

Dad came to the United States from Canada when he was a child. He grew up American in all but the legal sense. I take it from his stories that my grandmother never quite got over leaving francophone Canada, but Dad never shared her nostalgia.

Pearl Harbor was attacked two weeks before Dad turned 19. He was in the U.S. Army before the month was out, assigned to the Pacific theater as a medical corpsman. Two years later, somewhere in the South Pacific, he and a few fellow soldiers were summoned into the presence of their group’s commanding officer.

To their surprise, they were told that they were being sworn in as United States citizens. There had been no advance notice of any kind. One soldier ventured to ask, “Aren’t we supposed to pass a test?” “You passed it,” said the officer.

No exam. No ceremony with flags and photographers. Just a motley crew of soldiers born in random countries, quickly becoming American citizens before going back outside to tend to the wounded.

Dad told me this story shortly before he died. He almost never talked with my sister and me about the war, but in his last days, he was happy to share the story of how he became a citizen. It helped me understand more deeply why Fourth of July celebrations meant so much to him.

As I said, he earned his naturalization the hard way. He treasured his citizenship. Even when our country’s leaders seemed to be steering things in the wrong direction – and Dad aired his opinions about such things – he loved this country. Never jingoistic, always patriotic. Always ready to speak up, never willing to shout down. He set a good example.

I write this on Independence Day as my neighbors are setting off fireworks. I’m normally averse to such noise. As an immigrant’s kid, though, I’m loving this. Tonight’s noise is about the Declaration of Independence. It’s about the Constitution and its preamble, and how we’re still reaching for a more perfect union. And it’s about a man 9000 miles from home, just barely an adult, being told “you passed it.”

I hope there may yet be immigrants’ kids whose parents have stories like that to tell.

Open Book: Meeting authors

I was recently lucky enough to meet an author whose books and journalism I’ve enjoyed for years. I’ve also been reunited with an acquaintance who was at college with me many years ago, and who has since written something special . It’s fun to be able to thank writers in person.

The long-ago college friend is now Sister Patricia Marie Barnette, RGS (Religious of the Good Shepherd). As a licensed professional counselor, her work has included post-abortion counseling. I was surprised and delighted when she gave me a copy of her book God’s Mercy Awaits You: Find Healing After Abortion (Pauline Books and Media, 2020). In the slim but rich volume, she distills her faith and experience into practical help and encouragement for post-abortive women. She addresses how abortion affects men, and how friends can assist someone struggling to come to terms with an abortion. This is a life-affirming book in every way.

Kathryn Jean Lopez might be best known for her journalism. She’s a Catholic pro-life writer steeped in politics and current events: my kind of person. When she spoke at a conference in my area, I got my ticket early. Being able to greet her and thank her for her edifying work made the trip worthwhile. Her book A Year With the Mystics (St. Benedict Press, 2019) is downloaded to both my phone and tablet. Its guide to daily prayer and meditation is a Catholic resource to appreciate.